singing prozzak

I didn't believe my mom when she told my age on my birthday. I even used the calculator to prove it. Its scary. I always imagined myself that I'll be somehow "different" and kind of "stable" when I reached 25. It's sad that I cannot always make-believe myself to be young and carefree when the bills I'm paying are starting to pile up. Although its fun tricking myself to be a teenager - cause I look like one. :)

I can never always be my Daddy's little girl. We are poor. But I'm happy with everything that I have even though the market says it not enough. I envy people who are intelligent enough to create a simple yet wonderful world within them. I want to be like that. I want to be free of all the inhibitions and the negativity that may have fed me up to be where I am now as revenge for my high school days. Its a nightmare remembering the days. But it does make me feel better knowing that I can change and I can see it right to their face as it get slapped and kicked by fate alone. Now I'm happy.


"It's a cruel cruel world...When you're on your own...It's a cold cold heart....That could turn you down" -Prozzak

But I'm not on my own all the time. I always want to be with someone... and being in love is something I can never regret of. It's my favorite kind of high. A psychedelic moment of bliss I would love to capture in frames and play loop in my mind. Its the music that will make everyone dance and cry at the same time. Its the magic that makes me believe in fairy tales and gospels. Its my strawberry fields. I am very grateful to have one now or whatever it is that you want to call it so its kinda' cool. I'm also very grateful to the people I've shared with it in the past.

Bigla naman akong nag-valentines mode nito. I used to sing "Oh baby baby its a wild world..." but I think I'm done now.haha Nothing beats a great a company.

I know what's bothering me... How will I ever answer this question now? "Who I am?" tsktsk. Kasi i always wonder when I was little what will I be like when I reached 25. My gas, 1 year na lang.